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Energy is Eternal Delight
Dec. 27th, 2015 11:47 pmHaving Bipolar II Disorder, and being treated for it, has confused my sense of my own mind. But I think my natural state should be one of joy. And I think it was exactly that until the nightmare of adolescent bullying began. That unpredictable, inescapable harassment and abuse, that expulsion from the body of humankind, profoundly shaped me. One of the most obvious results is an immense sort of pit of anger at the centre of my being. I was unable to respond aggressively to my torturers; so no wonder that when I began to encounter aggressive female characters in fiction, they became not just alternative selves, but actual goddesses.
I'll write more about that later. What I wanted to note here is the connection between those teenage experiences of a raging, powerful, guiltless divinity, and my later discovering the Great Goddess of Wicca and Neo-Paganism, who incorporates that furious, destructive aspect alongside the soothing manifestations you'll find in any New Age shop.
In the introduction to The Book of the Goddess Past and Present, Carl Olson writes:
In a word, the Goddess is energetic. With the latest adjustment to my meds, I feel as though I've finally reconnected to that blazing and delightful fountain of energy.
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Olson, Carl. The Book of the Goddess Past and Present. The Crossroads Publishing Company, New York, 1987.
I'll write more about that later. What I wanted to note here is the connection between those teenage experiences of a raging, powerful, guiltless divinity, and my later discovering the Great Goddess of Wicca and Neo-Paganism, who incorporates that furious, destructive aspect alongside the soothing manifestations you'll find in any New Age shop.
In the introduction to The Book of the Goddess Past and Present, Carl Olson writes:
"The essays in this book often depict the goddess with a strong, powerful and dynamic character... in contrast to the mistaken concept that the feminine is tranquil, passive, or inferior. The goddess is associated with life-giving powers, renewal, rebirth, transformation, and the mystery of death. She also attracts us with her alluring charms, arouses our curiosity about her powers, and tempts us with her pleasureful and unbridled nature.
Another aspect of her nature that many of these essays depict is her demonic or destructive power... a virtually inconceivable, overpowering aspect that threatens death and darkness... like the process of time, the goddess can be irrational, merciless, and destructive."
In a word, the Goddess is energetic. With the latest adjustment to my meds, I feel as though I've finally reconnected to that blazing and delightful fountain of energy.
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Olson, Carl. The Book of the Goddess Past and Present. The Crossroads Publishing Company, New York, 1987.
